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11:38 Jul 31 2011
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I suppose I just wanted to get this out. Not for anyone to read really but to write it somewhere.



Thinking about relationships, I have commitment issues. I'm not afraid to admit that! I don't hate men. I'm single and never switching to the "same" side. I just get scared. I'm young, innocent and stupid.





I've tried things out but never got far because I'm afraid of getting hurt. Lust comes last, it's brains and sharing that I seek from a guy. But this isn't some advertisement. I take caution. I just don't want to seem like such a flirt at times with people. I'm not an ass like some people.



One thing that shows up as a warning sign is being controlled. I'd never let that happen to me. Also when some idiots can't respect my peers. Ick. I'm horrid. I'm just as the leo sign describes leos.



Yes, I am silly enough to blame the leo sign too. lol Stubborn, fire, passionate controlling sign and I don't give 2nd chances. Heh. That reminds me I didn't get a newspaper form the 27th. :( Damnit. I usually like reading about my sign then. -.-

08:43 Jul 28 2011
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And here I thought you were going to hurt? Should I feel disappointed? I was giggeling. T_T

23:27 Jul 27 2011
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Yay! Bitching pays off! I'mma get a tatt! I'mma get a tatt! Best birthday ever. >_> Not that the poll for that was too high. xD

Goodbye teenhood
06:42 Jul 27 2011
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I'm old. Know what I wish for? I wish I was stupid and childish like the rest of the young people out there. I wish I didn't have a brain. How do you guys do it? I'm lost.



Anyway, I just hope to move forward I guess. Nothing special here.

23:51 Jul 26 2011
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It's so hard to be mean. It's not an easy thing. I don't enjoy doing things like that but if I don't stand up for myself then no one will. I'll get no respect that way.



Well, instead of them going out to buy junk they realized that I wasn't about to clean up after them any more. Honestly if there's a point when I want to leave then that means something is wrong. And I know they love me somewhere otherwised they wouldn't have cared.



I did some things. Like climb onto something like a monkey to change a light bulb. I don't like climbing unless I'm inside my home. Odd, huh? It's more so the light bulb that scares me.



Anyway, I've taken this day by the nuts but it doesn't help the fact that they make me feel bad in the first place. I need a break from their crap. Everything I ever hear is about someone else. I don't care about your friends. Not to be selfish but I want you to care about the person who cares about you; me. Forget about them.



So, I had cake early. It was a cannoli cream one. Not bad for something that wasn't chocolate. Tomorrow I'll be off to get my non-drivers ID. Then god knows what. I don't know why but I hate birthdays for myself. I'll be loosing my teenhood. T_T So old. I know for damn sure that my childhood was shit. But my teenhood? Eh, it had some growing points. Don't know what my future will bring but I'm really hoping it's freedom. I've gotten tired of being treated like shit. I need a job to save and gtfo.

11:50 Jul 26 2011
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What to say? Waking up and getting yelled at that I don't do anything, again. You know, I wasted a year helping you guys? Feeling god awful at different points in time too? I don't need to be treated like this.



You know what an ass you are? YOU'RE THE FUCKING PARENT, not ME! -Insert teeth grinding and muted cursing- If I wasn't into wanting to have passed school a year ago then I would have ran away. It's the little things that make me have small choices.



I hate all the name calling too. I'm not your slave, bitch. FOr once you got me cake. It's been a few years because you don't care, you cheap bastard. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR, Everything I hear now-a-days is about money. Fuck you! Just plain fuck you. I don't care, all you do is buy JUNK! Cheap, cheap piece of shit. I know we don't have it but I'm sick of thinking about it. God I fucking hate money you mo'fo'.



I would get a job if I could find anything decent. The day I get to collect enough, I'll run away and then you can say that I do nothing. Your words hurt more than anything. They HURT, because I love you. Love makes us do crazy things like put up with each other.



I had to argue with you so much over an "okay" to get a tattoo. You say it's nothing but it is something, truth is you don't want me to have it.



Well what to say, my birth day is tomorrow on the 27th. One year older. I don't know what to think of it. Seeing as I really hate them, everything about it. Because I've been so let down in the past. No one really gives a shit so why should I?



Well, blah, I have to get my non-drivers ID tomorrow. It's finaly not going to rain.. and that's what we'll do. Reason why I have to wait for a tattoo is because she's a cheap bitch who wants to look at different stores. CHEAP asshole. Fucking money, I hate it.

05:41 Jul 26 2011
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I hate your friends so much. I don't even know why you hang out with them when they act like idiots. Their kids are all fucks ups too. I don't like their kids and those are friends that I grew up with. So yeah, I took the right paths so far but I like how you make me feel as if I don't do anything. You're one to talk. All I do is take care of you.



You know why I don't go out with you guys as often though? Because it turns into "Alright, who do I have to kill around here!?" and I'm tired of it. I don't need the stress. It's enough that I don't express myself enough that it makes me sick but you idiots never stop. I'm sorry but kindly fuck off and leave me to myself. I swear I have a head ache from you people.

21:56 Jul 25 2011
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One of the boys laying on my back when I'm trying to nap is so cute. xP When Were Wolfy marches on it though it tickles. haha Cute kitty. :3



My hand is starting to act up again so I'll rest for a while.

08:17 Jul 25 2011
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Fucking hand spasms. It's annoying me! I don't even know why I have it?

04:18 Jul 25 2011
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Back! I know, it's like that was FAST! I thank someone in my coven for getting me back here. :P

04:05 Jul 24 2011
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I wish I were dead, well no, there's a difference from wishing and wanting. I wish, so don't freak. I'm freaking enough as it is. My sister is one god damned prick. Fucked up my computer system and now I have to get it fixed.



I have a very limited time at this computer cafe'. Walked about 30 plus city blocks just to get here at night. Not to mention there are black outs in different areas of Brooklyn because of this damnable heat wave. Heh, why didn't a car run me over or something. >_>



So.. blah, looks like it'll be the way things used to be; rather boring. My Birthday plans are screwed too. I'll just play in the street or something. I was yelling " I hate you." so much today. Hahah Fuck, fuck, fuck.....



Anyway, Mr. and Mrs.CM, I'mma be off for a while. You know damn well that I'll be back, just not any time soon.



My FB has blocked friends from posting or commenting on my wall. I'm just not up for a Birthday. Makes me feel bad and shit. My luck for this week has been so fucked. /:



How to end this.. um, have a nice day everyone? lol That is all.

11:14 Jul 23 2011
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One of those moments where I hurt. Where I just need to get away and go to sleep. Sometimes I wish the peacefulness and happy times of which I once imagined existed. Everything just hurts. I need time. But I rush into things. Everything I write about tends to fall into this circle. I'm pressured into things. It's stressful. Yet, I fail. Looked down upon sometimes.



I've turned so rotten and I wish it would stop. I long to feel happy again. Maybe that's why I want things so much. But this is life, no one gets what they want unless they have hope. I've lost.

10:13 Jul 23 2011
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It's far too much. I don't know why. I could blame the heat but I just hate a lot of things at the moment. I blame the uneasy feeling of upcoming events.



My right eye hurts. I want to rub it but I know if I do it'll only make it worse. x__x Just my luck.

00:26 Jul 23 2011
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Was looking in my past entries of last summer. Trying to see the pain and how I over came it. With just about everything that happened that year. Even.. the surprising few words of caring comments.. from strangers. I was what, about level 70 in July last year? ahaha I had another profile back then too. Though I no longer have it.



On the plus side, I found some of the cute things I used to spend time collecting. This is so me sometimes. Lol

14:57 Jul 22 2011
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Ugh, I wish if a person was blocked then they wouldn't have access to seeing and joining a FB event.



On another note, it's hot. Not just plain hot but stupidly hot. With that bad air quality thing going on. Ah well. Not that I matter much.



Lastly, I wish more people would listen to me. Why must I always fight for what I want? She better get me my gift, not because of what she wants to give me but because it's the only thing that'll make me feel like I wasn't such a waste of space every time the 27th comes along. Selfish much? Hell yeah, why shouldn't I be?

07:51 Jul 22 2011
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Got back from the Monkees concert a while ago. There was a nice breeze for such a hot day. They made jokes about their rivals and it was a sight to see! Well, guess I'm getting boring. lol Not much of a good journal entry.

07:56 Jul 21 2011
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Hope again.



Anyway, enough of my mindlessness.



I am going to see the Monkees live! :D :D :D And for free. :D That is all. :3 I know. >_> I'm so excited. xD ♥

18:21 Jul 20 2011
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I'm sorry, you'll never know, only they know. Because I can't bring myself to say anything. Because sometimes the world fails. There is no such thing as having freedom of speech at times. The world is a LIE because sometimes a cover up is worth more than doing what's right. Of course I think it's a let down. Of course there is nothing I can do. In the end, I know a whole lot better. Not everyone is human. And now, not everyone is going to be so nice. What a waste. I need a new spot.

17:19 Jul 19 2011
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16:58 Jul 17 2011
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03:15 Jul 17 2011
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Whoever has me added to YIM, don't answer it. I was hacked today. Whoever it was I caught in time. (With a little help from a friend.) Only they spammed some dude and got them stood up for a date. -___-' I loathe YIM. I will, never, never use it. I mean c'mon, why the stranger danger date? Mo'Fo' hacker! I have half a mind to kill my account.

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19:23 Jul 16 2011
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03:22 Jul 16 2011
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Sometimes I wish you'd leave me alone. Can't I take a nap without you talking behind my back? Sis, you really want me to end up leaving because of your crap? After all I do help take care of you. You'll never learn, but I love you. I have to. :P

01:28 Jul 16 2011
Times Read: 706

Ever have one of those moments where you can't get someone out of your head? Someone you once loved. God, I'd have thought a crush from over a year ago would have left me but Jason's in my damn dreams. This can only mean one thing. Do a million people searches till I get tired and give up. >:D

>_>

07:47 Jul 15 2011
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So we got back from the Joan Jett and the black hearts concert. Got to see some Girl in A Coma too. o: It was really nice. To see it live and feel the music. The changes suck. /:

It used to be in a big park where people could bring a chair and see it for free and they'd have some small give always. They had to move where they did the concerts because of some assholes that wanted to sue them for noise. So it was move them or not have them at all. People can see it for free but they're too far to really enjoy it. They've always had the 5 dollar seats but still. Being all the way on the boardwalk sucks for them.



You know damn well that the regular hippies and punks went though. lol They always somehow remember me. O.o Just those people that sometimes stop me in the street and say "I know you." xP



My mother is in a chair when she goes out so she got good spots because of it. Though she had some friends meet her there. I hate her friends. Lolol They're annoying as fuck. I'm going to use my last days as an angry teen to my advantage. >_> "Oh you wanted to sit here? I don't think so. :)" "Bout time I stood up for myself. Asshole, idiot friends of hers.

19:02 Jul 14 2011
Times Read: 728

I never realized how much I should have asked for help back then. Yet, because of typing on a keyboard, I feel as if I can truly feel. I still have my doubts about things, but your encouragement. I can't thank you enough. >__

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19:30 Jul 13 2011
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22:58 Jul 12 2011
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Damn right.

22:21 Jul 12 2011
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There are some things I miss at times. Having someone care for what I want. In ways which I can't explain. I can only hope that with age I'll be blind enough to settle with everything. Or stupid. One day I wish to be stupid enough to find some dolt. I hate whining. Sometimes I just enjoy sleeping it off and embracing dreams.



Man I need to get out more. It's just hard caring for loved ones. Who am I to blame or complain? I mean, last year she mattered, they both did. Love is that strong. Strong enough for family to go through hard ships. They say I don't do much these days... but sometimes I wonder if they forget. -Sigh-



Sometimes; I think I grew up too early.



Dreaming and doing are two different things. I've been trying to break my chains since I turned 18. And it's given me night mares. What happened to the hope which I once held onto?



It started a long time ago where I hated thinking about that day. No one really cared. No one wanted to be friends. Even people who I thought were friends were nothing but hurtful.



Thinking back on it, Lilly had always tried to hurt me. Even when I was too young to notice. Took me a broken tooth to realize that.



I go on to erase half of this nonsense rant. Only to say, that even though things may seem crappy at the moment, the feeling of not being the only one seems warm.



-Interrupted rant-



Heh, Just got off the phone with (mom) her. I barked back. "Shut up. Just because you're aggravated doesn't mean you have to talk to me like that." And she said please and thank you.



God, All I want is to be nice... why do I have to fight for what I want? /: It kills me.

09:17 Jul 12 2011
Times Read: 760

TLDG looked up my name on UD. :P Sounds sort of true. xP Hahaha! Me having dark hair and eyes. That sort of thing.

Usually dark haired and dark eyed. A Rose is a person who is daring, fun loving and extremely active. Though she may come off as snobby, she is truly just shy with people and takes her time getting to know someone but if she likes you then she will be the best friend you could ever have. Knowing a Rose is a blessing in your life because once you get her out of her shell, she is a sweet, loving and caring person. Never doubt a Rose's trust because no matter what, she always has your back. Rose is the type of person who is impossible not to envy. With her perfection and sweet ways. She just has that X factor you dont find in any other girls! A really loving girlfriend who you could bring home to met your mother!(usually your whole family will fall in love with her then too) , she just has that effect on people, and she will always put a smile on your face no matter what mood your in!. No stranger to advances from men/women as there is usually a queue lined up trying to get to her, her sexual energy is unreal/amazing so you can understand why this is!! She is completely faithful and honest the best girlfriend/wife you could ask for. Usually dont give second chances so dont piss her off!!



All in all a remarkably beautiful individual inside and out!!

That girl is so nice! She must be a Rose!



Random man:(Q)That girl is the most beautiful/sexy/amazing/gorgeous person i have ever seen who is she???



Rose"s friend: Oh thats my friend rose something special isnt she!!

20:48 Jul 11 2011
Times Read: 781

So this being sick thing is going to stop cause I said so. v_v I'm going to see Joan Jett and the Blackhearts, then see the fire works the next day for free. That's Thursday for the concert and Friday at C.I.



Next week I'm going to see the Monkees. :D

00:52 Jul 11 2011
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00:50 Jul 11 2011
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Working on a fun table to pass the time. :P Might stick it on one of my profiles if I like it.

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21:26 Jul 10 2011
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You can be so hurtful sometimes. The times I needed you, the times I was jealous for you being there for her more. I'm stupid for feeling bad. Some have it worse. I've just been in bad moods this week.



Okay, so, what is it that I want? I've already give up hope on getting a camera. Really, what I want is something you'll hate. But I don't know, I feel that if I don't have it, I won't feel happy about growing old. Maybe I need hope again to enjoy myself but I really want something. Why will I bother to hold onto hope though? Well, maybe because in the end it'll be okay.

11:15 Jul 10 2011
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I know why I've been feeling sick now. And I also read up on some stuff. I just need some rest among other things. z___z



Well, good to understand more I guess. :P

12:32 Jul 09 2011
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I'd kill for some meat right now. Not pork, not chicken, I want beef. lol That is all.

06:35 Jul 09 2011
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01:50 Jul 09 2011
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Aww damn glicthes. Still love the idea behind it. :P

01:34 Jul 09 2011
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13:02 Jul 08 2011
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I hate how if I don't ask for something to eat and I take it on my own it's "stealing". Yet you two stuff your fat faces.



I'm tired of it. I'll take what I want. I don't care anymore. I'm the kind of person that still asks if I can go to the bathroom. . .



What about the food from that place was my reply. I have rights to something which you didn't pay for. /: Yeah. I thought so. I hate getting treated like this. Then knowing that you'll end up being nice. It fucks with me too much. Why do you do this? I mean it's come to that. Where we've had to get food from there ut do you really have to be such an ass about everything? I won't eat everything you guys want. The hot dogs from that other store were yucky. I will not eat it. So it's my fault that I when I want something else?



Stupid rants. Just get out of my head. I'm sure I'll be happy by tonight.

10:52 Jul 08 2011
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I guess it's just that this place has been an addiction. A good one. And when those words are thrown at me I get defensive. There's nothing I've wanted more. Is it because of everything I've learned here? In a way yes and no. Because I've learned to feel again and because of the help getting to learn simple things like coding.



I hate this most sometimes. "You're older. You're the adult. Blah blah blah."



I've helped you out so much. With the chair and everything. These days I take it easy. Everything is "Listen to your mother." I've been doing that for years and sometimes it end up getting me hurt. You don't even encourage me anymore. You fucking joke around and then call me stupid for taking it seriously. I get such toxic thoughts sometimes. Been shutting off emotions for years because of that. I hope you enjoy losing me everytime you fuck up. Look who the fuck is talking when you haven't done much but fuck up in life. And yet it's all my fault for helping you. For being on here. For trying to keep sane.



I hope you know I would have ran by now if it wasn't for this. To try and help myself.

05:19 Jul 08 2011
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I just wish someone would tell me everything would be okay. God someone get rid of these feelings.

10:06 Jul 07 2011
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Oh god I feel sick. -Cold sweats-



I've had an ear ache all day and everything else. Ugh. Feels so blah. Why am I getting sick in the summer?! T___T Why?

12:46 Jul 05 2011
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I feel really awesome today. I have no idea why. I've just been feeling super. Even after yesterday's shit. lol



No, I'm not in love or anything but I'm almost back to myself. :P Least my summer self. Burn, burn, burn. ]:)



Hmm. For today I will trick my mom into letting me out to do an errand for her. While I'm out I'll be sneaky as to doing something for myself.



Sprayed two blue streaks in my hair. Not much cause I don't want to turn blue. Other than that, I have to remember my file names! C****1. That's the file I need. Without the *. >_>

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05:33 Jul 05 2011
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Well, I guess the only funny part is that I cursed in front of my mom. I was fucking trapped in my room for hours! T_T

18:50 Jul 04 2011
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I have a bad habbit of opening my mouth and saying what I want to. My mother's friend was over again today. Mom had a small disagreement over the phone with him. I think they're all dolts. Well, my mother isn't, she just needs someone like me to vent to and explain how stupid everyone is. She'd do the same for me. lol It's a friendship we have at times. :P



I'm in my room again. With these really happy thoughts. I've been really happy these past days. Don't know what's gotten into me but I enjoy it. Even when I'm angry; I end up happy in the end.



So I hare him arguing with her from my room. Then I hear him say that shit out loud. /: "Rosie is so D-, she never smilies." PFTTTTTTTTTTTTTT I was so fucking pissed after he said that. Here I am, in bed, almost asleep, with very awesome thoughts and he says that crap? Fuck that. He wants to see an angry "sad" looking girl? I'll just show him my angry side. Never talking to him again. v_v For all he knows, I disappeared.



Heh, and no one calls me "Rosie". He can go fuck himself. v_v

02:23 Jul 04 2011
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I've gotten over 9 hours of sleep. My mother's friend was over. He's supposed to be hanging out with her and helping her fix the pipe. My game plan is to hide in my room like a good girl so I won't end up saying anything stupid. Why? Because for years he's been talking behind my back to my mom on the phone. Years. "Why is she this? Why is she that? Is she...?" (Not filling in the blanks for that, but still. -.-)



So he's coming back soon. Like really soon. I just spent a few minutes to bitch about it here. =] Lol



I feel really well rested though. O.o

12:19 Jul 03 2011
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Not a lot has made me happy for a year. Slowly things are getting back to normal for me. If there ever was a normal anyway. I haven't really felt happy but it's the small things that have helped me heal. The really small things like believing in people again even if it is just a small amount of people. I can express it and not hold back.



I wasn't a monster per say, but I learned how to hold back on emotions enough to make me feel sick if I were sad. I didn't want to admit it, but now I can cry. Without that choking feeling.



Now I do go to bed, even if it's for a small amout of time. I enjoy it. I don't randomly put a pillow on my face in my sleep. I pile on blankets and hug onto any pillow in reach. Then slowly close my eyes and find soft warm thoughts.



What the fuck is wrong with me?

15:38 Jul 02 2011
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I'm so glad that Lullaby commented before. I grew up with Astro Land, not Luna Park so I didn't really understand some of Coney Island's past. Apparently, even though the first Luna Park was closed down for years, it made chain parks in other places and countries.



I've been doing a lot of research on Coney Island recently. That's defiantly something to add in there. The reconstructed park might not be the original but it's in the right place. The people from the 80's- 2010's will always miss Astro Land though. I guess people were angry about the change when they took down things like the famous rocket ship that sat on top of a store. Everyone loves the Cyclone roller coaster though so it wasn't removed. I think it might be a land mark. Just like the Wonder Wheel at Deno's Park.



I was even angry when they took Astro Land down; because for one yeaar the replaced it with these people who weren't from this state (You could tell with their southern accents, but that doesn't give jobs to the people who need it in the area) and the wiring to things were all over the place. That was the year it was "Dream land". Yuck!



So to take a new look on things, it makes me want to explore Luna Park even more. :)

Please forgive my spelling. I'm tired.
05:08 Jul 02 2011
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Ah I was cranky today. Broke a brush in two before I left. Just wanted to kill something.



We went out and got the pipe, the stopped off at a few other shops. But hey it wasn't all that bad. I got some bangles. I'm a sucker for them. Like if you broke one of mine I'd probably cry over it. I don't know why. Maybe it somehow reminds me of my aunt. I got a few shiny ones and a few fake rings that look silver but aren't. Got a lion head, a rose ♥ and an ocotpus. xD I wish I could take pictures of them. they're pretty. :) I also got this spike like bracelet and eventhough they aren't real metal spikes they're to drool over! (I enjoy spikes. x:)



After that we took the bus to Coney Island and saw the fire works by 10PM. I felt like a 12 year old for those few minutes. Too bad we didn't check out Luna Park yet though. I would still like to see the changes. There's this new roller coaster and I wanna go on it once. >_> Scare the shit out of myself. Lolol



While we were heading to the bus stop we ran into an old home girl. Haha, Fucking shorty now bitch. It's funny how she respects me more. I don't know if it's because I'm bigger than her or because I look scary. :P Anyway, I'll always hate her. :D Wish I coulda' went to the punching bags and made small bets. lol I used to love beating older mens scores. I'd win 99% of the time unless they were just that much stronger than I. xP



-Yawns- Aww damn, I missed getting a few people I wanted. Oh well. Not my day huh?



Now to look up when the free summer concerts are. I could look in the Brooklyn news paper but I'm too lazy. I'll just look it up online.



Hmm. Hmm. Hmm. Oh yeah. When I got back a guy rated me. O.o With this:



"Like the profile, can you let me know what Thorns Of The Rose is? In the meantime, I hope you like my little poem, it was inspired by your profile.



Smell Of Death



A rose rotting in a vase,

Drained of sustenence,

Withering fast,

Fading like a morning dream

Of scented melody,

A requiem, a midnight mass,

Prayer hands, unclasped,

Reaching out to grasp,

Holding on,

They grab only thorns.

The smell of death lingers,

Within bleeding fingers!



I kiss the cold, velvet petals,

The last vestige of summer,

Fading in the mist,

The cold breath of winter,

As darkness falls,

And midnight calls

His twelve chimes.

The shadows gather in ghostly dance,

In candlelit romance,

A flickering tongue of light.

The smell of death embalms me,

Preserving my misery!



borloff





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21:47 Jul 01 2011
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Well the pipe is broken. We have to go out and buy someting to replace it. I get so stressed between my sister fucking me up and then crying to everything else she ruins. Then that piece of shit Siamese doing something stupid. Ugh. I could stragel someone. But I won't.



My sister tells me, "Oh I don't want to play, I just want to keep hitting you." -.- Congrats! I so give up. This is why I don't want kids for a good long time.

02:49 Jul 01 2011
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My god that story line was so sad. I must be getting soft. A story line like that hasn't made me feel bad since that show where a person's sister died. I've grown over this past year; into a total softy.



I think it was the fact that the girl felt alone and did somethng I should have done years ago. Yet, I didn't do such foolish things. Although that birthday scene and her with that pet and all that. Ugh, sad! T__T